My dear Lord… Bhajana Kutir #120

4:15 P.M.

My Dear Lord Krishna…

I’m writing to You to thank You for all that You have done for me. You have given me the human form of life and put me in contact with Srila Prabhupada, a pure devotee spiritual master. By Your grace, he accepted me as a disciple and initiated me into the Hare Krishna mantra. He gave me second initiation into the  gayatri mantras, and he awarded me sannyasa, the renounced order of life. He has given me much service unto You in the Krishna consciousness movement. He has planted the bhakti-lata-bijia—the seed of devotional service to You—in my heart.

You have let me live considerably long so far, with many opportunities to serve You. You have given me life and tolerable health. You have always given me a place to live and food to eat. I’ve had to endure some oppression in serving in ISKCON, but You have always given me the resources to tolerate it and the attitude to see the bright side and remain loyal to ISKCON. I have had to deal with some difficult persons, but You have enabled me to survive my relationships with them without intolerable stress. You have given me strength in difficult times.

You have forgiven me my trespasses, as I have forgiven those who trespassed against me.

You have given me a growing taste for chanting the Hare Krishna mantra. You have enabled me to write many books in Your service, and You have given me appreciative readers.

You have allowed me to travel to Mayapura and Vrndavana and live there, although I have encountered difficulties, and You will give me more chances to visit the holy dhamas.

You have given me knowledge of You, appreciation of Bhagavad-gita, Srimad-Bhagavatam, and Caitanya-caritamrta, and the ability to grasp the knowledge in these books. And You have given me faith in You and Your pure devotees. I am especially grateful for the faith I have in You as the Supreme Personality of Godhead. I love to hear accounts of Your lilas and descriptions of knowledge about You—scientific knowledge of the Vedic literatures.

I thank You for implanting hope in me that some day I will go back to Godhead and live with You with a spiritual form in eternity, bliss and knowledge. I repeat: I thank You for giving me Srila Prabhupada as my spiritual master, because he is the hope that I can go back to Godhead. It will be by his mercy, by his recommendation to You.

I thank You for my friends who serve me and whom I try to serve.

I thank You for being the most beautiful person in existence, and I thank you for loving Srimati Radharani, who is also the most beautiful person in existence.

I thank You for being kind to me in my imperfectness. Please always let gratitude pour from me to You for all the wonderful things You are and all the wonderful things You do for me and for all living entities.

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